Lonely...

I dread the weekends, Saturdays are so long and lonely, I'm not used to being so alone. It's very depressing. I keep thinking that maybe when Spring comes with it's warmer weather I'll be able to get out more and won't feel so depressed. It's going to take a lot of adjustment to swing my mindset around. Ughhhhhhhhhhh, I hate feeling this way. I used to be so happy, crapola. I need to find what will make me happy on my own now. I can deal with the nights alone as I watch TV and knit. Sundays I usually do my ironing etc. But it's the Saturdays that have got me down now. I figure when the snow melts, maybe I'll start hiking up in Calendonia. I need to lose weight anyway. It will also help me lose some of this angst and caged animal feelings that I've been experiencing. I used to shop to feel better but I can't afford that anymore. I need to find meaning and happiness in my life. I will let you know my progress. Wish me luck my friends......... Every journey begins with a single step....... step.......